A new scary chapter

I’ve done a lot of writing on this blog about pioneering and yearning to look over the next hill or around the bend. I’ve talked about courage and change and the importance to make both of those things a part of your life.
I’ve talked about the dangers of ruts and submitting to the injection so the pain of the normal goes away. I’ve talked about the trap of getting used to the same ol’ same ol’ and how you’ve got to make the effort to break out, to be about change…not about the status quo.
I’ve written about the big bang and though we often wish for it…it rarely happens and when it does happen, it rarely looks like what we thought it would look like.
Amen to that.
The big bang happened to me at 2:30pm on Thursday, June 15. I was called into the office and told that I no longer had a job. Now that’s a big bang.
To be honest, it wasn’t a shock. I knew that I was beginning to feel very restless at work and I felt myself longing for something much more.
Well…now I’ve got it.
Let me tell you…pioneering might be glamorous to some but when you are the one doing the pioneering it can be down right scary. The uncertainty, the fuzzy not-knowing, the doubts and second guessing and wondering what if (hey, didn’t I write about that too??)
But for me it had to happen. I had grown way too comfortable where I was. I don’t think I’d ever have gotten serious about other things until I was laid off. Now…you can bet I’m a whole lot more serious about what my options are. I’m definitely motivated!
So, what’s in store? How should I know? Pioneers never know what’s next until they top the next hill. I’ll let you know when I get there.